I don’t remember much from the first few weeks after I delivered Jay. Certain things stuck with me but as far as details and specific timing of some things, they’re very hazy. I remember being confused, angry, mad, and in denial. I find comfort in words.  I started looking for quotes, songs, and books to read.  First, I started searching Google to find words of encouragement, happiness, motivation; something to tell me it’s ok.  I created a separate blog with all of the quotes, poems, and scriptures that I found during my search.  I looked at them often and tried saying them to myself constantly. I then started looking for…