We held a memorial to honor Jay’s short life.  It was very hard going to a funeral home to plan services for our son that was stillborn.  The funeral home was very compassionate and did a great job getting everything ready for us.  We had to pick out various items for the service and make decisions on what was to be done during the services.  I remember sitting in the cold, dark room of the funeral home thinking, “I shouldn’t be doing this!”, “Something isn’t right!”, and “WHY!”.  We put a lot of thought in to the things we picked and hoped that they would honor Jay.  We…